The Lonely One~

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Haiz, still in the crucial zone/time... Really miss the time of coaching... How come, I don't get to enjoy the situation that I should despite giving so much? Providing so much and hard for the battalion, now instead of enjoying my ORD time, trouble free, relax, preparing for after ORD stuffs and also enjoy clearing my off and leave as well as doing what I want to do much, I am really stuck in this shitty delima. Another weekend that I gave away my class again. Really miss the time of coaching. initially I can also start my own swim classes. However, due to this case, I don't dare to start. Took up quite a number of kayak courses, but I can't give a 100% assurance of my attendance yet due to my this issue.

Hope that this issue can really drag all the way till I ORD. So that even for the ORD parade, I could also enjoy myself and also book out after the parade. A really happy ORD...

Pls......

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

4:09 PM

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Monday, May 4, 2015

So what's after final field training? Instead of being a norm like other NSF, being in the ORD mood, planning what they want to do after ORD, clearing off/leave now, feeling happy, enjoying...

Unlike me, I am stuck in a situation of ORD but not happy. Being sad, awaiting/wondering what's the punishment that I will be receiving. Indeed, past month is a really bad month for me.

Firstly, I am currently pending and waiting for punishment of damaging a weapon despite it isn't entire my fault. If the weapon wasn't place there, I would not have get involved in such a big case. On the other hand, if I were to dismount to ground guide, this shit should not happen. No point blaming here and there. weapon was damage not on deliberate, I am the one that need to face the punishment severally. 14 days of SOL or DB. But being honest, the weapon was really at my blind spot, how can I spot it? Well, about another 10 days of my off/leave gonna to get eaten up again. :( In the past, working so hard, to get things progress well, can't believe that this is the outcome.

Secondly, this month should be the month whereby my uni interview result be out. I don't feel that I will get a placing as I didn't really perform well in the interview. :(

Thirdly, in army, what is the point of putting in effort? Coming back despite on my leave to carry on to prepare what is needed for upcoming training. Off was being eaten away.

Fourthly, now my usage permit application also facing some issue. Previously, it was stated that standard is able. Now, they say need to include CPR and AED or at least a CPR. I need to fork out another sum of cash to get this done again? Of so many people, only mine then they realize that there's loop hole and won't clear me till I produce the certificate.

Fifthly, being a soldier, it is a norm to bring along the personal weapon when heading out in the field. This thing, my driver will also forget and need me to remind him. Next, NVD, he forgot to draw. Also need me to remind him? After BOS was done, log book need to update, also need me to remind him? During these 2 weeks of back to back field training, he really pressing me to my limit.

I am really tired about all these shit that are happening. Even having off, I am still being bother with what happening in camp. Can I really tank for another 1 month plus? Will my luck start to change this month? I don't know. Can only hope for the best.

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

3:19 PM

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