Sigh, in my life, I think currently, I am facing the toughter ever challenge so far. Storm after another. Leaving me wiith so many heavy load on my shoulder which added to the stress that I am facing. Sometime, I really feel like leaving all the problems and stress.

Problem 1, start of the first week, already obtain 1 "C". How am I going to bring up my GPA this semester?
Start of the second week, already obtained another "C". Really dam demoralise. Seem like it is getting harder and harder for me to get my merit GPA already. My goal is drifting me further and further away from me. No matter how hard I worked. No matter how much I do. No matter what I do. It will still not be recognised. Only smartness will be recognise.

Problem 2, seriously, I don't really find the type of joy and fun in RP anymore. I really really hope/want the clock to turn back for a year .

Problem 3, Current 4 brothers there also facing problem. Seem like I could not bring the 4 of us to tide over this storm. We gonna lose 1 of them. Yes we are defeated. Sigh...

Seriously, never thought that there is a day whereby I will really be so down. So far in my life, current, I am in the most down situation. But still what is actually surrounding me are brushes and trees whereby I need to take what to move on. Flying at the speed of light, thought was spinning in my head. How can I move on to my highest peak again? Now I am all alone to climb myself up. Nobody will be there for me to go through it. This is going to be a very very tought period and time of my life. Falling from the peak to the very end is very easy. But climbing up is very difficult. Especially with wounded around me.

Sitting in the empty room

Trying to forget the past

This was never meant to last

But I wished that it wasn't so

But when the last tear fall

I will still be holding on to the memories