Thursday, January 13, 2011
Still think of her!
On my way to meeting just now, I keep wantiing to sms her. But in the end, I did not.
I just want to tell her that
my arm will always be there for her to lie on
my arm will always be there for her to hold on
my shoulder will always be there for her
But I can only try to be there for her if she need someone and she did tell me.
Just what is love? Just a word, it can make a person happy or sad. It can shattered a person heart into million of pieces just like a bullet shoot into a a person head and out came all his shattered heart.
From:
11:18 PM
[ 孤独なやつ™]
Without much realize, it is the start of the week 12 of semester 2.
4 more weeks to holiday. It was fast. In a blink of eye, 11 weeks had passed.
Tomorrow going down to British club for job interview. Hope that I can pass the interview as I am really desperate for a part time job.
If I get to work at British club, the first thing I going to purchase after getting my pay is contact lens. then follow by the Adidas bag :D
After next week, slightly more freedom to me. Yeah, at the very least, I can spend a bit more time to relax.
Starting of 2011, I said that I want to let go of her. But I just can't do it.
From:
9:57 AM
[ 孤独なやつ™]
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Why am I so useless? Why I don't have the courage to send her back? WHY WHY WHY???
From:
11:42 PM
[ 孤独なやつ™]
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Sitting in a dark environment with only my table lamp light up my surrounding. Cool and raining wether. Listerning to song that was years ago. Just to update my blog.
Tomorrow will be the starting of the school. Don't really looking forward to it. I was just hoping to end my year 1 semester 2 as soon as possible. Tuesday is the start of my UT 2. I am really scare of that UT. Because I really need to do well for it as I really did badly for my UT 1.
This semester was a real stress semester for me.
Do you know now, I had start to wonder does hardwork really pay off? This question I asked myself when I was in Secondary 4 taking my N level. Despite Mdm Chuah said that hardwork definitly will pay off and the outcome of my N level result prove so. Since then I did not question myself this question anymore. But nowadays, I really start to question it again. Because I really did give my best. But it just makes me feel that hardwork does not pay off.
Despite working hard, still unable to get "A" for daily grade. Well since that happened last year, let's just forget it any bounce back from the fall.
Also I realise something. The reason behind me foor being busy was because I really do not like the feeling of empty in my heart.
But how is the start of 2011, of course, there are things waiting for me to be done. But I will try to take note of my emotion already. That is the things that I had been neglectingfor the past few years.
From:
8:09 PM
[ 孤独なやつ™]
