The Lonely One~

Saturday, December 25, 2010

To almost everyone, 25 December was a day they looking toward to.
But to me, it was just like another day of life, nothing special.
Friends all going out for celebrating. But for me, just staying at home doing my stuffs.

Currently it was raining at my house area.
A very sudden big rain. I just feel that I was surround in a darkness life again.
A dark but peaceful and quiet time, listerning to a peaceful music, I felt so relax and very clear of what I am thinking.
I love this type of feeling, this type of environment!
It just makes me feel so relax. But the only thing that I am short of is red wine by my side. Without doing anything but relaxing and listerning to musics!
Just like how I enjoy the Friday night 8pm to 9pm, relaxing, listerning to music, seeing stars blinking in the sky and thinking of what are the things that I want in the future.

It had really been so long since I enjoy myself like that due to the workload I am having currently.

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

6:43 PM

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Wednesday, December 22, 2010

2010 almost pass.

There are good things happened to me there are also bad thing happened to me too. But most of the things that happened to me are bad. Especially November and December.

Hope that things in 2011 will be better than me.

Currently considering taking up part time study in NAFA for interior design.

Now what is my feeling toward her, I never think much. It is not possible for us.

I know that I am not a good observance, I am not a guy who are really willing to give up thing for the sake of her. Seeing the thing of what he did for you in your blog, most of it, it is difficult for me to do it.

Sometime, I find that it is very difficult for me to be a good boyfriend. Backpack travel is still the best option for me.

Let's carry on mmy life, forget my feeling on her and carry on persue what I want.
(1) Swimming Instructor
(2) Sport Climbing level 2 and higher
(3) Interior Design diploma
(4) Wedding Planner diploma
(5)DSLR Camera
(5)Boat Licence
(6)Boat for myself
(7)Car Licence
(8)Car for myself
(9)Get my AM and SR quickly
(10)Busy lifestyle
(11)Good GPA(3.0 and above)
(12)Backpack travel
(13)Learn other sports that I had been wanting to learn.

Since I had decide to put it down, the last thing I can hope is that she can find a guy
(1)That is faithful to her
(2)That will not make her cry anymore
(3)That will be protecting her
(4)That will not hurt her feeling
(5)Last with her
And many other. But shall not say so much as I do not want to disclose it.

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

11:48 PM

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Sunday, December 5, 2010

Another week had passed.

Today the weather was dam good for me to go for suntan and I did not give it a miss :)
After that, went home than out to commonwealth and meet Hariss for blood donation.
Most of the time today and tommorw was playing FM 2011 but after blogging going to do my pre reading and download of my 6p.

Coming out with my wish list for 2011. I hope I can achieve almost all. I think that I really going to change myself yeah, but need to cost $$$. So must work first.

Back ti the 4 brothers, it had been months since we all met. Have all of us go our separate way already? Hope no.

My 2 little sisters, it was a good news to me that you all are in quite a stable relationship. Hope you all will last.

Back to me, I know it is impossible. I will just let it go, hoping that it will not affect our friendship. But indeed I find her being stubborn. Since she was the one making the decision, I will give her my bless and wish her all the best. But I will still be there for her if she needs someone to cry on or lead on.

As for me, it was not the first time. So i was used to it. Also, I had found somemore new goals in my life. Which are in my 2011 wish list.
I had the thought of saving $$$ first before pursuing a certificate in wedding planning, interior designer and licences (boat and car). Ya, Also, at the same time, I will carry on body building. And ya, diving and rock climbing will be the next 2 other activities I intend to take on and finding organisations to start my volunteer work (was in my mind but up till now, have not start yet).

But before all this, I need to readjust my timing and save up $$$ first.

I will still admit that relationship will truly make a person blind and will totally change one.

Lst but now least, I think this song suit the relationship between me and her now. Let's me keep this feeling lock in my heart.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1i7TMs__Agg&list=QL&playnext=5

A new week a new start, let the unhappy past be forgotten and what should be forget forget.

From:

-The Lonely Guy-™

8:13 PM

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