Sunday, February 28, 2010
Nowadays, I don't feel that I am a wonderful and a prefect guy anymore as compared to the past. What happened to me? Although I knew that I am no longer a prefect guy anymore, but why do I still feel that I am a fantastic guy?
I do hoped that when my poly start, I can become a better person.
Life is always about making decision.
Last time my CLT course and scruba diving crashed together and I had to make a decision as I can only go for 1 course.After my diving, I need to make another decision again should I carried on my NCC?
And now I had to choose 2 courses given by the poly again. Upon receiving the JAE sms about my posting course that day, I was so excited as I managed to get into 1 of my ideal cousre although it is not my 1st ideal course in mind. And on that day I did not recive anymore sms about my JPSAE course which is OUTDOOR AND ADVENTURE LEARNING. I was sad that I failed the interview(At that time that was what I thought). I admit to my fate that I does not stand a chance in getting into my 1st ideal course (OUTDOOR AND ADVENTURE LEARNING) and accepted my JAE course (SPORT AND EXERCISSE SCIENCES) as I also did not recieved any sms from regarding the DAE too, in which I also applied Outdoor and adventure learning as my 1st choice and sport and leisure management as my second choice . As time passed by, I tend to forget about the OUTDOOR AND ADVENTURE LEARNING course. And friends also knew that my course was sport and exercise sciences. But to my surprised, yesterday when I recieved my package, I was given my ideal course. Which mean I passed the interview previously. 2 packages but 3 options.
JAE: Sport and exercise sciences
JPSAE : Outdoor and adventure learning
DAE: Sport and exercise sciences(third choice in applying)
And this time round, I need to make another decision in my life again.
Beside that, my poly school start also crash with my course for a few days. I need to make another decision to miss my course or my school. Another decision again!!!
Upon that, I felt that my current swimming instructor is dragging the time which mean I can no longer complete my life saving as early as I expected. Now I need to make another decision about changing to another swimming instructor as I had a talked with some of my life guard friend and they told me that my current instructor always like to drag.
Relationship just the same 1 word to describe myself."FAILURE"
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5:56 PM
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Saturday, February 27, 2010
Today is really a bad day for me!!! arhh!!!
Morning went to her home there intend to walk her to her rollerblade lesson. But no fate. That all I can say. Did not told her about it. Just want to give her a surprise. But in the end failed.
After that went to have my basketball training with TZY. Don't know why bothe of us is out of form today.
About evening time had a fight with my father.
Feel that will lose her(in which I don't really want but I can't control)
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8:06 PM
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Friday, February 26, 2010
In other things, I maybe successful, but when it come to relationship, I always feel that I am a failure.
Regardless of what type of relationship.
In secondary school friendship, I feel that our bond will break off soon!!! It is very pity that having going through years of time together having fun time, sad time together but in the end the relationship just break off. Building is really damm hard but breaking it is easily. Really in this relationship, we had been helping each other encouraging each other. Despite not all of them make it to secondary 5, but those who make it to secondary 5 I really enjoyed the last lap of our O level exam. Despite tiring, Jia Da and I still studied together during night class, giving one another moral support. But I don't think it will happened again. Sometime I really would like to do something to hold the bond. But it is just out of my limit!!! When I really can't do anything, I will choose to let go. It maybe a sad decision. But I really do hope that this is a wrong feeling which mean our friendship bond is still there! All I can said is to hope for the best.
The so called 4 brothers, I think it's no longer there anymore. Especially when school start.
BGR relationship, I am always a failure. I really don't know what to say. Just felt disheartened and upset about it. She promised to sms with me tonight. But i sent her 2 sms already and did not get any reply until now. Is she lying to me? Sometime I really wondering that what should I do? She is really a very good girl. I really hope to have her!
The time that I enjoy very with you guy(all my secondary school friends)
(1) The time when we are having morning tea and sing song at the same time.(Sec 4 & 5)
(2) Having night class with Jia Da.(Sec 5)
(3) Studied together at the Mcdonald at Yuhua village there before our O level paper(Sec 5)
(4) Having night gathering for drinks
(5) Chelay time
(6) Jia Da birthday celebration (Sec 4 and 5)
From:
8:34 PM
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Thursday, February 25, 2010
Hello and byb byb!!! Not in the mood to write!!!
From:
2:25 PM
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Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Why does it happened to me again? Again yet another failure in relationship!!! It gave me the feeling as the 2 pietures shown above :( Why do I fall into relationship trap this time round again? Why does my relationship keep failling again and again? Where does the problem lies? My feeling was like a smilling face but crying heart!!!From:
11:03 AM
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Sunday, February 21, 2010
It is Sunday again.
So yesterday morning went to play basketball with jasper and TZY. After that went for lunch together before home sweet home!!! Reached home, took a bath before taking a short nap. After that went out again with TZY to play L4D then went for my job interview and then dinner before home sweet home!!!
At night alone at home, slacking and emoing lor...
Today morning overslept again. Slightly late for my swimming lesson which start at 9.30AM. Woke up, brush my teeth then wash my face then wear my swimming tide on and off to swimming pool for my lesson. have my breakfast on the way to the pool. Reached there, card no $$$ need t use cash to pay then still need to change coin for my locker. Took out my goggle + suntan materials and $50 for my fee then went for lesson. During lesson, 10 laps of free strokes then after that 1 lap of extended toe and 1 lap of chin toe then finally learn strata jump(don't know the spelling. Rough guess the spelling.). Lesson end went for suntaan then home sweet home.
How I wish school will start soon. I want to be busy and also use my work to numb off my failure in relationship!!! Arr!!!
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1:19 PM
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Friday, February 19, 2010
I really do not know why I felt moody today. Maybe I am tired ba. Or maybe I felt that she been giving me cold shoulder these 2 days. Maybe she busy!!! Really do not wish to talk about it. How I wished that my poly school had started. So that I can use work to numb myself in the failure of relationship again.!!! In my realtaonship, the same history always keep reapeting again and again and again!!!
Being alone, life is always bored...
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3:58 PM
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Thursday, February 18, 2010
It had been so long since I post... But saying the fact, I really do not know what to write on this post... :D
But my latest update is that I had confirm going for the upcoming CLT course intake. It will be a full 3 weeks course. Should I feel happy or sad? I hope that I can help HKSS to get a GOLD BUC upon I coming and after getting it, I intend to focus on my other interest...
I think that the course will crush with my 1st few days of school.
And ya, I forgot that I had been posted to Republic poly, diploma in sport and exercise sciences for my further education.
On the other hand, I will be retaking my O level English to get at least a C6 for it.
Another few things I hope are to complete my lifesaving by March, my life will get become busier again when my school start. Hehehe!!
I think not much thing to write ba... Shall end here!!!
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11:17 AM
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